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23 August 2008 @ 05:25 pm
 
Welcome to ED TakeTwo. 

This is a community for those relapsing into an eating disorder. A place to discuss pretty much anything related to that. Here are my stats

AGE: 17
HT: 5"2 1/2
CW: ???
HW: 123
LW: 96
ED: Anorexia (diagnosed by doctor)

Phase 1:

Started when i was 15. I had gained some weight (I was at 120 lbs) and decided to loose it. I ate a little less every day. One less side dish with lunch. Then have two side dishes but no main dish. Then we did a huge unit on the Holocaust. Things went downt the crapper because i no longer deserved to eat, and i was too sickeningly privliged. No lunch at all. At that time I was around 103. That fall i ate better, actually, but dropped to my LW. Then, a mirical. 

I wanted to recover. 

I was still scared of it, but i started increasing my cals, excersizing less, ect. I stopped going on these sites. My recovery wasnt going quickly enough for my parents. They decided to go on the Maudsly approach, force feeding me, punishing me (LITTERALLY!!!!) with food. I want not allowed to cry. 

Since then i've only wanted to get sick again, but I've only just recently lost weight. I've developed a nice little phobia of scales, but i'm guessing i weigh....109? Maybe less. Probably more. 

Well, thats it for my history. Now this; some questions for you:

1. Do you find it easier the second time around, or harder?

2. Do your parents know?

3. Did your body change shape? (mine did. I store fat differently now)

4. How has your ED evolved?
 
 
marieturnermarieturner on August 23rd, 2008 11:21 pm (UTC)
1. Do you find it easier the second time around, or harder? I find its easier this time, like its the way i'm supposed to be.

2. Do your parents know? absolutely not... Never have they suspected anything. But my grandmother, she noticed me losing weight rapidly the first time, and she asked me if i was okay. I lied, of course.

3. Did your body change shape? I gain weight faster than before, but other than that, its pretty much the same.

4. How has your ED evolved? When I first had anorexia, I was pretty secretive, and it was just a small thing. Now its my everything, and its scary and comforting at the same time.
duckduckduckwho on August 24th, 2008 04:57 am (UTC)
I was fifteen when I started, too.

Stats [at age 15]:
Height: 5' 4"
Weight: 84 lbs
GW: As low as possible.

Stats [at 17, current]:
Height: 5' 4"
Weight: 120-121 (I was at 118 on Monday. Does this prove how much of a fatass I am?)
GW: 110-115

1. Harder. I'm less driven and I binge a lot and then lowered my calorie intake. It was so much easier before...I could just fast whenever. I would always tell myself "this is for my evilness, I'm such a gluttonous pig". Now I just don't even care.

2. Not this time.

3. Yes, I now store fat everywhere, especially in my arms.

4. It hasn't, really. I just feel it coming back along with my OCD.
Melancholy109melancholy109 on August 25th, 2008 04:42 am (UTC)
1. I find it harder. most of my friends know my "tricks" and call me out on it. it's difficult to come up with new reasons

2. no, not this time they do not

3. yes. i store my weight in my thighs. freaking terrible

4. i just don't care this time. i cared last time. I just stick to my routine, and carry on. i keep such a front up, it's tiring